Enough said.

And baby, life goes on..

I know it's been a few weeks since Ted Kennedy's passing, but on Thursday, August 27, 2009 I was on the highway from Maine headed to Plymouth (Highway 3A, I think), and I saw his motorcade pass by on the other side of the highway, from Hyannis headed to Boston. I saw all the onlookers stopping their cars on the side of either side of the road, watching the historic even taking place. And after the full motorcade passed by, the onlookers ambeled on back to their cars and went on with their lives. Even I went on with my life...
Just think of all the celebrities/politicans that died during the summer of 2009; including: Michael Jackson, Billy Mays, Farrah Fawcett, and a few more. And it's not even the celebrities, it's the "ordinary" people of our world that are dying everyday too. Think of how no matter how many people die, or what people die (the importance of them, etc.), the rest of the world keeps on going. You can lower all the flags to half mass as much as you'd like, but life just keeps going on. New babies are born, buildings are built, new presidents and other world leaders are elected, but people still die...
I guess I just wanted to say all that on here, and have all you out there think twice about your life and the things you do. Maybe even take some time to think about those who have died, and about how your life just keeps going. If just one of you has a moment of silence to thank God for everything you have, and maybe pray for the loved ones of any person who has ever died, that would be greatly appreciated. Thank you, God bless.

And I'll Send All My Loving to You

Taaayyyloor hereee! I am cuuurreentlyy:
loving: Sheamus John
! reading: The Etneral Kiss: 13 Vampire stories of Blood and Desire
watching/listening to: Across the Universe <3
missing: dance & Shea.

Muchos stress lately which has resulted in about a ton of bucket fulls of tears, whiiich sttinkerrs. Shea has been in Disney (but got home today), and school starts in like 11 days, which just adds more and more to the plate of stress I am currently being served.
What is with stress anyway? I've just been so unhappy, it's rather aggravating actually. But dance starts in 11 days too which'll most likely take the majority of this stress away. I guess with the summer going on, and dance not, I've forgotten how much I am absoultely in love with it. I realized all this when I saw Kalei at Target today. And I CANNOOOT FREAAKINGG WAIT FOR DBS '09-'10 YEAR TO START!!!!!! As soon as I get back at the studio, I pray that most of this stress will be relieved.

Alrighty, so I'm in Maine again (yesterday, today, tomorrow morning) with my dad this time. We headed to Vinalhaven for a wind turbine project of his. (BOOORRINNNNNGGG *YAAAAWNNN*) Early tomorrow morning I'm heading to Plymouth to see Shea for a few hours and then heading hooome. School starts in about 6 days too...

This blog post was pretty pointless, sorry. DX

Writing about LOVE via Jodi Picoult.

Don't laugh, but sometimes when I write about love I think of a flying squirrel. There's got to be a moment when that baby squirrel looks from the end of one branch to the tree six feet away and thinks twice about making a leap. Falling in love is no different; it's the moment that we close our eyes and throw away everything that seems reasonable and hope to God there's someone or something waiting to catch us on the other side. Either we're lucky...or we wind up bruised and battered on the ground...

If love doesn't conquer all, it certainly has the ability to heal us until we are willing to close our eyes and jump once again, for good.

-- Jodi Picoult

You won't be leavin' my arms ever, I promise you that.

Hellooo. My name is Taylor and I am currently

listening to: brokeNCYDE
reading: just finished Jodi Picoult's The Pact
located in: Maine
the weather is: hot and sunny here, but but by the harbor is chilly and foggy.
tonight: music box concert at the library.
picutres up: SOOON!

It's the middle of summer again... Goodbye 15th birthday, and greetings to 28 more days until wonderous Wahconah Regional High is back in session (YUUUCK). Also, 5 more days 'til I get to see my baby boy, Sheabear!
Summer has so flown by wiicked fast so far. I hate it. I still need more time to sit back, relax and enjoy life without the drama of schoolmates, the stress of schoolwork and dance classes, and everything that comes with starting a new year at school, as a sophomore.

I mean, growing up is an experience in itself without stress and drama getting in the way. But when it all boils down, is it the drama and the stress that help the individual grow up? Or is it strictly the experiences that add up that make the individual realize he/she is growing up? Maybe it's the people involved in those experiences, or even just the who, where and when kind of times that encourage the changes an individual makes.

Promise me sometimes you'll just live instead of thinking, just every once in a while. How else are we supposed to learn? Have a safe, happy and fun rest of the summer! Enjoy.



Cheecck it ouut. I bought this dress in Maine, it's soo much prettier in person and on me. (in purple)
http://www.kohls.com/kohlsStore/juniors/brands/derekheart/PRD~499855/Derek+Heart+Bridgette+TieDyed+Dress.jsp


Oh yeah, and never be afraid to SAAY ANYTHING <3

Hello summer days.

It's finally summer and I keep forgetting to post on here... Dx

Finals, and freshman year are over. I went to Maine the first week of summer with my dad for some wind turbine groundbreaking ceremony stuff on Vinalhaven. I got to see my Sheababy on our way home! Last Saturday Shea came to visit me and give me my birthday presents! (My birthday is on the 28th and he won't be able to see me Dx) HE IS SO FREAKING ADORABLE!!!!!! I LOOOVE HIIIM

Just touching upon this point, like no one reads this blog..AT ALLL so I'm not even sure why I post anymore, which is probably why I post once a month or something like that. But I do have a message to put on here at the moment.

I never realized how fast time could go by. I mean my freshman year in high school went by in a bizarre, fast flash. Summer's almost half way over and in the fall I'm going to be a sophomore. It's scary to think about it all. In a year I'll be driving and in one and a half I'll have to be looking and seriously thinking about colleges. Things used to go by so slow and now, I wanted things to speed up, I wanted to grow up. But now I want to stay young and not have to worry about things. I want time to stop and I want to enjoy everything I can without having to worry about growing up and time moving waaay too fast.

I'm glad it's summer, I get to be lazy and just relax, not worry about anything. It's the long, warm summer days that need to be enjoyed and taken advantage of. Friends need to be held close and cherished, and lovers too.

Things change, people change, and when things are different, they can't go back to the way they used to be. But that's what high school, and growing up, is all about...

I FREAKING LOVE SHEAMUS JOHN!!!

And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

REEEECAAAAAAP!:
Sheamus came up during April Vacation (Spring Break) if I didn't already mention that.
Next, DBS put on Alice in Wonderland this year. I danced as a hip hop card, the pool of tears, and a vulture. Shea, amazingly, came all the way up here to watch me dance :)
I'm soooo head over heels in love with that boooy!
Soon after the recital was Stephanie's party. Which was fun for the most part xD
Now it's finals. Everything is winding down so fast, I mean I'm a sophomore already. The six are sophomores...It's craazzzy.


Three more finals, two more days of finals, six more hours of being a freshman. It's kind of scary to see how fast everyone's grown up and grown closer, while in some cases didn't mature in the slightest and grew apart. New friends were made and bad friends were left behind. Good and bad grades were recieved. School lunches still remain crappy too. Some fell in love, others fell apart. Some parents got divorced, while others decided to remarry. New songs were released, only to become unpopular in a few months.
High school's just a bumpy ride, leading us straight into the rest of our lives. There's no need to be scared, you just have to have the right anchors and remember to hold on tight.
I guess it's time to say goodbye to sneakers and books. And say hello to barefeet and the sunshine (and sleeeping in late) xD
Have a great && safe summer everyooone.

Here's to the fast times.

Busy, busy, busy lately. I haven't updated in over a month!
Okay, so lots has been going on.
I've met and fallen in love with the most amazing boy in the entire world and universe. His name is Sheamus, and he's actually coming over today and tomorrow since it's Spring Break. He lives in Plymouth (on the other side of the state) so we don't see each other that often. But we talk every day and..yeah, we're in love.
As I mentioned above, I am on spring break. So far my vacation has consisted of lazy days, staying up late and sleeping in. It's great, but I want to do something fun and exciting for my break...maybe I'll come up with something...
School has been hectic. My grades weren't so good for third term. I think it's that whole winter grade slump. I also have less than a term left of being a freshman. This year has gone by so fast...it's scary. Everyone's excited for summer and the future, so we'll all have fun together.
Life has just been beautiful and..well..life. I've been grounded, fallen in love, hung out with my friends, got my phone taken away for an entire week, cried, laughed, laughed until I've cried, and all that jazz that makes up a teenage girl's life

you're what keeps me believing the world's not gone dead.

i wrote all these little things for well, someone special ♥, and he knows who he is.
they're not amazing.

your voice tickles my ear drums as I drift off to sleep.

I haven't even heard your voice and I'm in love with it.

your arms hold me close as we whisper secrets that run away with the night.

let's lie away 'til 4 a.m. whispering sweet nothings that mean nothing to anyone but us.

when it's you and me baby, the distance means nothing.

you say you want me badly sweetheart, but you don't know how crazy I am for you. together, we'll make our wildest dreams come true.

they met unexpectedly one Monday,
through a friend,
talked constantly through that week and fell.
now this ain't your Walt Disney fairy-tale romance.
she's far from a princess,
but he's still her knight in shining armor.
he says she's perfect
(which is a lie)
and some of that rubbed off on him,
making them the perfect couple together.
let's just keep it with,
they're two crazy, lovesick teens.

You got my heart racing and skipping beats.
You let butterflies free in my tummy.
You always know just what to say.
You got me feelin' all sorts of things I haven't felt before.
You make the miles between us not matter.
And as long as you love me, I'm gonna love you back.

love is something that takes hard work. it takes hope and faith, magic and courage. but mostly, it takes two people who are willing to do most anything to make it work ♥

I'll stay up late and write a song for you.
Maybe look into the stars and know you're missing me.
Maybe we'll both fall come this April.

I've never felt your embrace
but I feel you around me.
I've never had your lips pressed hard against mine
but I can taste your tongue.
I've never seen your eyes
but I can feel them on me.
I don't know that our hands fit perfectly,
but that'll all change in 6 weeks.

And my winter just got long 'cause there's six weeks 'til you.

And my heart's 175 miles away, with you♥

these things will change. can you feel it now?

Dear Stephanie,
Hey best friend. Well basically I don't know what to say. We've slowly drifted apart and I hate that. Okay some stupid boy broke our trust into a thousand, tiny, memory-filled pieces and I get that much. And yeah we don't see each other or talk like it was last year, but don't think I forgot about you because I didn't. I hope it's the same for you. I do have to say it hurts seeing you and feeling like I can't run up to you and tackle hug you like I used to. It hurts seeing you and feeling this huge, empy space that would shatter if the barrier between the two of us was passed.
overall babycakes, I miss you like crazy and want everything back to the way it used to be. Maybe we have to catch up majorly. We are missing out on the most important years of our lives. And you know, it's weird, I find myself acting like you in different ways each day. Maybe it's making up for the fact hat you're not there or making up for our somewhat, not all there, distance does mean something, friendship. Hey, I'll never know. I'll just keep pretending like evreything's alright...just like normal.
well, it's pushing midnight and i'm back to school tomorrow. I love and miss you, your face, your confidence and eveerything else.
I love you best friend.
I miss you best friend.
I'll always be here, always.

tjames.

keep that sunshine in your smile.

first off, like stephanie, i have a notebook where i write down little quotes, poems, songs, and ideas. i got it in august, and it's almost halfway filled up. i thought that was good news and [: yeah. i filled up two pages last night, just writing down stuff...it felt good.

i haven't danced officially in class since tuesday and i'm going crazzy. we had a snow day on wednesday which means no jazz. and then on thursday, my tailbone was killing me, so no modern ]:

today is sunday which means the weekend is over and i woke up this morning at 8!!!! why, i do not know. it was the worst though. so now i have another five days before i can actually sleeeep. aaah. plus i have a ton of homework and it's only 9:44...this day is going by so slow. and that would be why i sleep until 10!!

second main point to this, stephanie jayne drake will be leaving for a cabin bonding thingy with her freshman class at darrow today. no electronics or ways to communicate with her until wednesday!! aahhh. ]:

well this has lost all point now...

lovelovelove

tjames

wondering where you are, you're so far away.

i hate change. i don't know if a lot of people know what about me. but i hate change.
i love things to constantly remain the same, and when things are different or not how they're supposed to be, fake in a way, i get thrown off and my world is turned up-side down, and everything is just messed up. i don't know..it's weird, kinda.
i mean, look at trees, they change, things happen to them, they just scar and move on. why can't it be that easy? my best friend goes to a different school, my other friends find best, inseperable friends in each other,and i just feel lost sometimes. i know who i am, and i know what i want. but the change gets in the way.
but then again, if things didn't change...nothing would happen and life would go nowhere. change makes things happen and sometimes it does hurt..but...hmmm..i don't know. it's all so complicated.
but the worst part of change..is when you miss your best friend more than anything, but she's off conquering all at her dream school. it makes school harder, life harder..the distance does.
hey, hearts and bones break. headaches go away. life goes on. and change does happen...

barack obama.

we've all heard the songs. obama girl's "i've got a crush on obama", the spoof on "whatever you like", and i'm sure many of you have heard the "barack obama song" that they played on fly 92.3 this morning...
today, january 20, 2009 at 12:00 p.m. Barack Hussein Obama was inaugrated as the 44th president of the United States of America. and well before, Obama was elected and all, alot of word was being said that America wasn't ready for a black president...and today after watching part of the inauguration and hearing Obama's speech, i realized something. America is the melting pot of nationalities. it's not white dominated nor black, or jew, or hindu dominated. we all blend and mix in with each other and we all work together to make this country what it is. and why, may i ask, aren't we ready for a black president, or even a female president? i honestly think America is ready for almost anything people throw at it. Obama's speech was amazing and who is to say he can't be a good president??
i mean, it really got me thinking...i don't know..
thiink about it.
as my lovely english class would say. this is an "obama-nation" but they mean it in the best way possible <3

last night, well early this morning, tina and i were awake, at 2:20ishh to be exact. and we got bored and wrote this individual poems and connected them [:

Trustworthy
Amazing
Yodeler
Located
On
Rivers

is friends with

Tiny
Interesting
Nocturnal
Abbess

who owns a

Elephant
Like
Yankee
Spotting
Elk

who flirts with

Jamacian
Orantugan
Sensing
Hi-tops

who bonds with

Creepy
Oriental
Nature-loving
Nigerian
Orthodonist's
Receptionist

who's middle name is

Jumping
Antelope
Meeting
Esteemed
Salamanders

who's twin to

Knight
Activating
Random
Latrines

who dated

Energetic
Mongoose
Meeting
Astrailians

who is friends with


Absolute
Mayhem
Attacking
Nordic
Daranged
Albinos

who is married to

Lucky
Unicorn
Covered
Yogurt.

aaah. my life..

it doesn't get much better, no better than this.

woww. time has flown by. it's already almost half way through my 9th grade year.
i miss the days when the six would hang out and talk for hours on endless hours, when now two of us hang out 24/7, two others are in the play and have their time together, one of us goes to a different school, and the other is just there. but hey, that's what happens when you're in high school. everything changes, no matter how hard you try to stop it.
it's the heartbreaks and attitudes that make us different, but the things in our hearts and minds that make us the same. it's being a loser and being silly that makes life fun. oh well, people change their minds and their reasons, and life continues on. no matter what kind of condition one is in. whether it's happy, heartbroken, depressed, or whatever it may be.
well the six is just freaaakinggg amazing. and i miss them all dearly. especially the every day basis i'm still used to of seeing them. things change for a reason, but people come together for a reason as well. and the six is apart for a reason right now, but we're connected at the heart for a reason too.
and it's weird how still their smiles and hugs mean home, how being together as the six makes one feel complete and full to the ends of this earth, how we flawlessly mesh into one person. it's knowing how to usually finish one another sentences or thoughts, knowing what one another is going to say before they even say it. it's being together when we're not. it's better than any boy. it's knowing every little thing and quirk about each other but staying there despite it. it's supporting each other's dreams, wants and needs. it's more special than any single one of us could even being to explain. it's connecting through emotions when words aren't enough. it's a girl's night in eating a ton and a half of food that makes the bad things go away, even if only for a couple hours. it's attempting to stay the same while the whirl-wind around us is changing. it's growing up, not as individuls but as the six. it's leaving things behind but looking forward to the new things that are coming. it's keeping memories tucked away to tell our kids about our crazy childhoods. it's the importance of friendship, a friendship like no other at that. it's being best friends. actually, it's being the table of six. ♥

lean upon me, i'll lean upon you, we'll be okay.

i just got back from the movies, my mom and i saw bride wars with anne hathaway and kate hudson. it was a very touching movie and made me realize how much i love my friends and how glad i am for them to be my friends. especially the six.
the movie showed how important friends are, and how no matter what, nothing can get between them.
it made me think of stitches in clothing, like how close they are together...but they can be ripped apart..okay bad example...
but anyway, you get my point.
emma catherine ward has been my best friend since fourth grade. and well we really don't fight all that often...at all really. we always have the best of times and great laughs. well the movie made me think of all the six, and especially emma. she's always been there and she knows me inside and out. sometimes i think she knows me better than i know myself.
she's like my other half of a best friend, it's so easy to be a loser and have fun with her [:
aaaah. i can't say enough about her. she's just amaazzing.
oooh and don't get me wrong, the rest of the six is just as amazing [:
but emma has just been through so much stuff with me and same me with her.
i decided to make her feel special...[:
NO TENGO PANTALONES.