these things will change. can you feel it now?

Dear Stephanie,
Hey best friend. Well basically I don't know what to say. We've slowly drifted apart and I hate that. Okay some stupid boy broke our trust into a thousand, tiny, memory-filled pieces and I get that much. And yeah we don't see each other or talk like it was last year, but don't think I forgot about you because I didn't. I hope it's the same for you. I do have to say it hurts seeing you and feeling like I can't run up to you and tackle hug you like I used to. It hurts seeing you and feeling this huge, empy space that would shatter if the barrier between the two of us was passed.
overall babycakes, I miss you like crazy and want everything back to the way it used to be. Maybe we have to catch up majorly. We are missing out on the most important years of our lives. And you know, it's weird, I find myself acting like you in different ways each day. Maybe it's making up for the fact hat you're not there or making up for our somewhat, not all there, distance does mean something, friendship. Hey, I'll never know. I'll just keep pretending like evreything's alright...just like normal.
well, it's pushing midnight and i'm back to school tomorrow. I love and miss you, your face, your confidence and eveerything else.
I love you best friend.
I miss you best friend.
I'll always be here, always.

tjames.

keep that sunshine in your smile.

first off, like stephanie, i have a notebook where i write down little quotes, poems, songs, and ideas. i got it in august, and it's almost halfway filled up. i thought that was good news and [: yeah. i filled up two pages last night, just writing down stuff...it felt good.

i haven't danced officially in class since tuesday and i'm going crazzy. we had a snow day on wednesday which means no jazz. and then on thursday, my tailbone was killing me, so no modern ]:

today is sunday which means the weekend is over and i woke up this morning at 8!!!! why, i do not know. it was the worst though. so now i have another five days before i can actually sleeeep. aaah. plus i have a ton of homework and it's only 9:44...this day is going by so slow. and that would be why i sleep until 10!!

second main point to this, stephanie jayne drake will be leaving for a cabin bonding thingy with her freshman class at darrow today. no electronics or ways to communicate with her until wednesday!! aahhh. ]:

well this has lost all point now...

lovelovelove

tjames