wondering where you are, you're so far away.

i hate change. i don't know if a lot of people know what about me. but i hate change.
i love things to constantly remain the same, and when things are different or not how they're supposed to be, fake in a way, i get thrown off and my world is turned up-side down, and everything is just messed up. i don't know..it's weird, kinda.
i mean, look at trees, they change, things happen to them, they just scar and move on. why can't it be that easy? my best friend goes to a different school, my other friends find best, inseperable friends in each other,and i just feel lost sometimes. i know who i am, and i know what i want. but the change gets in the way.
but then again, if things didn't change...nothing would happen and life would go nowhere. change makes things happen and sometimes it does hurt..but...hmmm..i don't know. it's all so complicated.
but the worst part of change..is when you miss your best friend more than anything, but she's off conquering all at her dream school. it makes school harder, life harder..the distance does.
hey, hearts and bones break. headaches go away. life goes on. and change does happen...

barack obama.

we've all heard the songs. obama girl's "i've got a crush on obama", the spoof on "whatever you like", and i'm sure many of you have heard the "barack obama song" that they played on fly 92.3 this morning...
today, january 20, 2009 at 12:00 p.m. Barack Hussein Obama was inaugrated as the 44th president of the United States of America. and well before, Obama was elected and all, alot of word was being said that America wasn't ready for a black president...and today after watching part of the inauguration and hearing Obama's speech, i realized something. America is the melting pot of nationalities. it's not white dominated nor black, or jew, or hindu dominated. we all blend and mix in with each other and we all work together to make this country what it is. and why, may i ask, aren't we ready for a black president, or even a female president? i honestly think America is ready for almost anything people throw at it. Obama's speech was amazing and who is to say he can't be a good president??
i mean, it really got me thinking...i don't know..
thiink about it.
as my lovely english class would say. this is an "obama-nation" but they mean it in the best way possible <3

last night, well early this morning, tina and i were awake, at 2:20ishh to be exact. and we got bored and wrote this individual poems and connected them [:

Trustworthy
Amazing
Yodeler
Located
On
Rivers

is friends with

Tiny
Interesting
Nocturnal
Abbess

who owns a

Elephant
Like
Yankee
Spotting
Elk

who flirts with

Jamacian
Orantugan
Sensing
Hi-tops

who bonds with

Creepy
Oriental
Nature-loving
Nigerian
Orthodonist's
Receptionist

who's middle name is

Jumping
Antelope
Meeting
Esteemed
Salamanders

who's twin to

Knight
Activating
Random
Latrines

who dated

Energetic
Mongoose
Meeting
Astrailians

who is friends with


Absolute
Mayhem
Attacking
Nordic
Daranged
Albinos

who is married to

Lucky
Unicorn
Covered
Yogurt.

aaah. my life..

it doesn't get much better, no better than this.

woww. time has flown by. it's already almost half way through my 9th grade year.
i miss the days when the six would hang out and talk for hours on endless hours, when now two of us hang out 24/7, two others are in the play and have their time together, one of us goes to a different school, and the other is just there. but hey, that's what happens when you're in high school. everything changes, no matter how hard you try to stop it.
it's the heartbreaks and attitudes that make us different, but the things in our hearts and minds that make us the same. it's being a loser and being silly that makes life fun. oh well, people change their minds and their reasons, and life continues on. no matter what kind of condition one is in. whether it's happy, heartbroken, depressed, or whatever it may be.
well the six is just freaaakinggg amazing. and i miss them all dearly. especially the every day basis i'm still used to of seeing them. things change for a reason, but people come together for a reason as well. and the six is apart for a reason right now, but we're connected at the heart for a reason too.
and it's weird how still their smiles and hugs mean home, how being together as the six makes one feel complete and full to the ends of this earth, how we flawlessly mesh into one person. it's knowing how to usually finish one another sentences or thoughts, knowing what one another is going to say before they even say it. it's being together when we're not. it's better than any boy. it's knowing every little thing and quirk about each other but staying there despite it. it's supporting each other's dreams, wants and needs. it's more special than any single one of us could even being to explain. it's connecting through emotions when words aren't enough. it's a girl's night in eating a ton and a half of food that makes the bad things go away, even if only for a couple hours. it's attempting to stay the same while the whirl-wind around us is changing. it's growing up, not as individuls but as the six. it's leaving things behind but looking forward to the new things that are coming. it's keeping memories tucked away to tell our kids about our crazy childhoods. it's the importance of friendship, a friendship like no other at that. it's being best friends. actually, it's being the table of six. ♥

lean upon me, i'll lean upon you, we'll be okay.

i just got back from the movies, my mom and i saw bride wars with anne hathaway and kate hudson. it was a very touching movie and made me realize how much i love my friends and how glad i am for them to be my friends. especially the six.
the movie showed how important friends are, and how no matter what, nothing can get between them.
it made me think of stitches in clothing, like how close they are together...but they can be ripped apart..okay bad example...
but anyway, you get my point.
emma catherine ward has been my best friend since fourth grade. and well we really don't fight all that often...at all really. we always have the best of times and great laughs. well the movie made me think of all the six, and especially emma. she's always been there and she knows me inside and out. sometimes i think she knows me better than i know myself.
she's like my other half of a best friend, it's so easy to be a loser and have fun with her [:
aaaah. i can't say enough about her. she's just amaazzing.
oooh and don't get me wrong, the rest of the six is just as amazing [:
but emma has just been through so much stuff with me and same me with her.
i decided to make her feel special...[:
NO TENGO PANTALONES.